Some days I feel so broken. Worn down by people; their lack of compassion, their comments, their inability to think of anyone besides themselves. You know what? It sucks!! I get so tired of it and today is one of those days when I’ve just had enough, when I keep fighting back the tears. I don’t like crying & it gives me a blotchy face, which isn’t my best look.
I’m so thankful I have Jesus to turn to, especially on days like these. I remember before I was saved, how I used to feel, how I used to self harm, how I wished I wasn’t here some days. Things were dark, my thoughts were dark, and the only way I coped (if you could call it that) was to hurt myself. It makes me sad. I often feel so detached from the person I used to be, though it helps me, in a way, to be able to talk about past hurts, to think of it as someone else, almost. Sound odd? Well, it’s just what I do.
The difference Jesus has made to my life is huge. I mean, I have a relationship with the creator of the world, I can talk to Him anytime and He listens, He helps,He counsels, He heals, He loves me. ( Isaiah 9:6) I just want to rest in all of that; the feeling of being loved so much that He died for me, that God would sacrifice His only begotten son for me…it’s hard to put into words what that means to me.
So on the dark days, on the days you feel you can’t take much more; turn to Jesus. He loves you so much, His gift of salvation is free to all. All who repent (accept you are a sinner and turn away from your sins) & call upon the name of Jesus; ask Him into your life. ( Acts 16 v30-32 & John 3:16) Trust me, you will never look back. That’s not to say that suddenly things are easy, in all honesty it can often be the opposite, but having Him by my side when I go through trials and hard times makes it easier & the hope of whats to come keeps me going.
Thank you Lord, for your blessed hope.
1 Peter 5:7 “Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”
(Originally posted on my previous blog in April 2020)
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